doing the right thing maybe not the right thing to do..

salam.....

what a night was last night,...
my dad just arrived home and went to see me at my room...
i don't know what was his intention at the first place... he sat next to my while i was playing counter strike...haha
then i start talking,asking about the car at the workshop...

suddenly i jumped to a sensitive issue....currently the hottest issue between he and his friends and our family....
before this i didn't any opinion on the issue because i think it is not suitable for me to get involved in...but this time i made a decision to give some thought about the issue...

all of sudden my dad just keep quiet and just listening to what i were saying....his face turned to a sad mode...
i fired all my thoughts without thinking the consequences that could happen...because i think that if i keep shutting my mouth it will become much worse that he could imagine....

he agreed on what i said to him....but there's nothing he can do... that what was he said....yes!! that's what he should do i replied....do nothing! just let it be...and see what would happen...he keeps defending his friend but not thinking the other part of his friend feelings....i was so sad...everyone make mistakes in their life but some can be corrected or forgiven...but some are just like nothing that we can do...we have to face it and think it on the positive ways i think....i know..on his mind it was the right thing to do...to reconnect the relationship..in fact it was the right thing to do if,if both parties are willingly to accept...no only one party.....it will ruined everything.....for me and my suggestion is my dad's friend should think about the past that he had done and take this as an effect of what he had done....start over again and don't disturb other people's life just to make you feel happy,comfortable, not lonely of confused...think about others too!! please....!

it stopped there,thank God my dad didn't get angry or anything like that...maybe i should give this thought long2 ago..I'm just afraid that i would get scold because interrupting...haha.. i hope he will understand what i said to him...actually my mum encourage me to tell him about this....i think i made the right decision....but some say that, "doing the right think maybe not the right thing to do"...weird right...but it is true...

i think i write too much already...i just can't sleep and think i should write this...silly me..:)


-syidi89-

lonely and boring..

salam....

during this 4 months of holidays, i think i never ever gain anything that is priceless, meaningful or useful....

but there something that makes me feel better...i lose weight....
hahaha..
so unexpected...because it is holidays and i eat a lot...
never gain but lose only....

the thing is...i feel very boring..
don't know why....
still..i try to help myself 2 be a better person day after day by doing something that is not stupid o wasting time...
but just couldn't find the rite way to really achieve what i really want...
is it because not enough effort that i put in... or maybe there are other factors that lead to this thing...? or is it just another bad moment in my life...?
huhuhu..
can't quite figure it out rite now...
sometimes i think, why is it so difficult to be a person with the attitude "happy go lucky" ?
is it because of my past?
or is it because the bad things that I've done to other people or my friends...?
or is it just does not suites me?
Oh God,please help me....!
i just want to be like other people who can live with or without their problems with happy feelings and and have a bright day in my daily life...i know that it is impossible to have a good moment everyday in our life..
sometimes i feel lonely...being at home while my friends still at the campus doing their study and
having lectures day and night...fuh..
i really miss that thing...wake up early in the morning,rushing and running not to be late for classes...hopefully time will past as fast as possible so that i don't have to wait longer and throw away this lonely and boring things far away from my life.....



i hope next month my knee will be better than this month and i hope can run like always quickly and ahead of the schedule...so i can run anywhere that i want...
maybe at the beach or somewhere else but not while playing football or rugby..not this year...

2day, some of my friends will register at IIUM for short sem....
hope they will be fine like always....
gudluck to all of them!



to anyone who reads this post..please..
if you have any opinion or suggestions do tell me okey..?
because my friend used to say this to me..."always all ways"
maybe i just could not find it...

thanks for reading n sorry for any grammatical errors...:)


-syidi89-

ragam org melayu....

smlm.....aku ngn ayah aku nk g gunting rambut....

kebetulan plak dkt tmpt 2 dorg bru bkk pasar borong bru....

yg 2 bgus...sng utk org2 setempat ni...

tp yg aku sgt2 pelik.....npe dorg ske parking kete dora kt tempat yg xsepatut nye......???

padahal kt tmpt 2 telah disediakan tmpt parking yg cm bapak bnyk nk mampus....free plak 2....

bkn sng nk jmp tempat cm2 kt kl nih....

aku ckp ngn ayah aku....npe la dorg cm 2...?

ayah aku pn balas.....kebnykn org melayu ni mmg g2.....tmpt2 cm ni mmg ske la parking xikut peraturan...tp kalo g shopping complex ke ape ke...xkesah je parking kt tmpt tgi2 bertingkat2 pn...

bg ak...org melayu ni kdg2 malas xbertempat.....btul ke ea...??

correct me if i'm wrong.....


-syidi89-

nk isi dgn ape....?

salam....

cti kali ni mmg ak boring tahap dewa la...

ke slh ak jgk sbb xamk shrt sem....??

ke slh timing mse utk recover dr operation ari 2...???

ak cm menyesal plak...

4bln...nk keje xley....nk lepak mlm2 pn xley....

adui....

amatla boring skali....

xpaham.....

aku sgt2 tension kebelakangan nih sbb pe...???

umh sblh ni duk bt renovation....

ok lg yg 2...

tp yg ak xtahan smp mlm dorg keje....

mmg bgs...tapi kalo ats bukit sorg2 bley la...

kt sni bkn nye xde org len yg hidup sme ngn dorg...

nth pape je....

mak aku penah sound dorg b4 ni...
tp cm xde efek je...

ak penin...

dorg ni ak xknl....br je bli umh 2 yg mane umh 2 mmg da ok n antara yg tercantik dlm lorong ak....

tp die bt renovation 2 cm nk bt rumah bru...
abeh sme die pecahkn n bt baru...
dinding yg menghubungkn antara umh die n umh ak je yg die xpecahkn....


tiap2 ari duk dgr mesin gerudi 2 memekak...tension nk mampus ak....

n satu lg yg ak xpaham.....npe kebnykan mende yg dibuat kt malaysia ni "dibuat supaya ianya boleh dibuat lg..."

korg phm kn mksd ak..
cmne la nk ubh mende ni....

tension2.....


-syidi89-

happiness and sadness

salam...

ni kali pertama aku tulis kat blog ak nih, n aku bru nk blaja...

utk kali ni ak nk cte psl mende tajuk ak nih...wlpn cm tajuk yg memboringkan..

dlu ak xprasan mende ni berlaku...wlpn ak slalu dgr yg hidup ni bak roda...kejap ade kt ats n kejap de kt bwh...

tp bg ak sme 2 berkaitan ngn keputusan exams o yg sewaktu dgn nyye,bkn psl happiness or sadness...

tp sejak 4hari lalu aku mmg rs happy gle sbb dpt cntct blk org yg ak dah lme gle ak xdpt cntct time ak tgl kn skolah dlu....

mcm2 yg kteorg bual kn...

cme ble ak rs happy sgt tibe2 dtg fikiran smp ble mende ni akn bertahan....??

ak pn set kan otak ak supaya be ready to feel sad after this...

n mende tu mmg jd...
sbb bek la ak da ready wlpn ak rs sgt2 xbest utk rs sedeh....

tp life must keep going on kn....?

so smp ble2 pn ak kne pk g2.... after happy there will always sadness to replace it...n vice versa....

tp skg ni ak amat2 sdey.....




-syidi89-